A Quick Timeline to Catch you up

JAN 2,1998 -Started dating Michael Neal Peterson <3
MARCH 4,2001 -Had our first daughter Katelyn Faith

AUGUST 19,2002-Had our second daughter Maddie Hope

June 2,2003 - Married my bestfriend in the world <3 January 10,2005-Had our third daughter Kali Love

April 24,2008- The day our lives were changed forever.

The Call,Telling the girls,losing reality,how to go on,what now,the who,what,when where,why?

This day was the day me and my girls lost the Man in our lives. He was on his way home from work when he was in a horrible accident with a semi truck,which struck fire.He was pronounced dead at the scene at 3:10 pm

I remember talking to him probably about a half hour before the accident.He always called to tell me he was on his way home.

I called him again while I was waiting at the girls school to pick them up. He never answered.I tried all day and night long, and nothing.I was very worried by this point.I had tried and call his work to see if he was called back in for a second shift.They said they would call me back.

It was around 10:30pm when they had called and told me that my husband had gotten into a horrible accident.I remember thinking ok,which hospital is he at so I can go see him. Never in a million years did I expect her to say he was pronounced dead at the scene. My heart dropped and my body froze, I can never explain what I felt like at that moment.

It was late at night and I was alone in our house with my girls in their rooms sleeping. I just wanted to get off the phone! When I hung up.I walked in the girls room and just started crying,trying not to wake them up.

A million feelings and thoughts were going through me.

I immediately called mine and his family.

Cops were over shortly and family as well.

They sat me down and gave me the details.They handed me his wedding ban and asked if I could identify what it had engraved on it. I was hoping they had the wrong person.But it was him.

Alot of what they said and asked that night was a blur.

I know that the next morning was the hardest thing, feeling it all over again and knowing that I would have to tell our daughters that their dad would not be coming back. How do you prepare for a conversation like that....

There is so much more that I can say, but for now this is what was the beginning.

I will add more later when I have the strength to do so....

Ok so I could not sleep tonight so thought id try to blog some more while I have the time and will to do so.

So later that day I had sat our girls in a circle on my bedroom floor and with my mind and body quenching at the thought of even telling my young little girls that dad had got into a car crash and wasn't coming home and is in heaven now.There faces crushed my heart,I could see their bodies freeze as I told them them that their dad was gone.Immediately Maddie ran out crying to the backyard to her grandma(Mike's mom)My heart broke yet again.I couldn't believe I was telling our precious girls this horrid news.I didn't feel like the protective mom that I was supposed to be, the one that never wants harm on her kids,and instead I was the one that crushed their hearts.It was the most painful thing I had ever experienced.

Katelyn was 7 at the time,Maddie 5,and Kali 3