I dont recognize myself.I feel like a horrible person with out Mike, like he took all the good with him. It makes me wonder if I will ever be able to be ME again.
Ive become very defensive and feel like the whole world hates me,and in response i show hate back. This is NOT me! at all !
I used to be the one person who was never negative who always put others before my own and did so much through out the day, the one people wanted to be around, and now i dont even want to spend the day with myself. My fear is my girls wont either.
They are getting older and I am feeling more and more alone as time passes and hating myself more and more as each day passes.I dislike myself.I seriously think the good in me died when Mike did. He was my happiness and Joy and now hes gone. So am I.... well at least the person I liked.
What does the Lord say about you, Mele? I think He sees you as the "apple of His eye!" You are loved and respected by many!!
ReplyDeleteRejoice in the love the Lord has brought into your life!